Its been awhile since i have posted

So let's see whats been going on in my life. I have started working at my church. Its been great. I actually enjoy my job, and i love the fact that i'm able to get out and talk to people. Its been nice, however today i missed, i believe i have pink eye. I will find out tomorrow when i go see my doctor.

Cheyanne is at my moms. I miss her, i talked to her today and she told me "mommy i'm having fun at papa's and grandma's" I almost wanted to cry. I love that little girl, and the more she's gone the more i miss her. When she's here she drives me insane, but man when she's gone i want her back. But its all good.

As far as Donnie and i go, we went on a vacation at the beginning of the month. It was good, and well needed. We bonded over that weekend. Though at times we still fight here and there, its not like it use to. I have a new found love for him, that i was starting to lose. It's been great, but i will say that, he tells me that he loves me and that he goes out of his way for me from, the house and doing what i want to outside. Things he told me he wouldn't do when he was married the first time. Though we live in an OLD house and its outdated, we are slowly fixing it. We are fixing to pour concrete in the car port and then make a drive way, from there we are going to do an electric fence which i am glad, because he never had that in his plan. We are then going to expand our house to make more rooms and a larger bathroom, living room, kitchen, and make a dining room as well as build more rooms. So i'm happy. He does go far and beyond to make me happy. I sit back and think sometimes, maybe it wasn't all him, it was me to. I'm stubborn and i refuse to budge on my thoughts or wants, but its not fair to him either. So i have realized i need to stop and let him be the man sometimes... Its a work, but after talking to him and seeing the differences and talking about our marriage i see that he does love me. So its worth the fight. He has only really loved one other girl in his life and that was his high school sweetheart whom he thought he was going to marry. But things happen. I use to think about what my life would be like and all i can say is thank you Lord, for allowing him to go and file for divorce from his first wife, so that it opened a door for him and I to be meet and get married. Because she wanted to work it out, but he didn't. So thank you Lord for that.

I have sorta faded from the Lord, which driving home from my mom's i cried a lot, i realized that God is first and i need to put Him first again. I started to sorta put Him on the back burner. I love Jesus with all my heart, but other things were consuming me, and i started to turn back to my old ways. Through prayer and crying and thinking, i know that God understands and he forgives me. It brings me back to Natalie Grants song I won't be moved. That song was me to the dot. And the Lord has shown me the light so many times, and though he will never turn His back on me, it hurts Him when i do it to Him. So that will stop and i will follow him 100% once again. What made me sorta stray i have yet to figure it out, actually i know what it is, but that will not be discussed right now.

My baby Kaylie is almost 16 months and she's doing sooo good.